Milo arrived early full of enthusiasm and energy. Soul began, “Remember me telling you about Soulmates, Milo. It was Charm who explained about soulmates and the desire to merge with your loved one. He showed me the wonderful example of a water vole submerging into the water, merging with the river then leaving it and regaining a separate identity again in order to illustrate his point.
It took a few days to reach Charm and Love, but it was a very straightforward journey following a clear path almost all the way there with only a few simple choices to make on the route. When I reached the stretch of river where Charm and Love lived I was struck by the beauty and the serenity of the river. There was a beautiful energy with a sense of peace that I could feel . I stopped to enjoy my surroundings and felt in no hurry to move on in this tranquil setting. I felt unusually relaxed without a sense of urgency.
After a while I saw two water voles in the distance swimming towards me. When they finally reached me I noticed their happy smiling basis radiating a lovely glow and instantly felt a warmth inside. I introduced myself, “Hello, I’m Soul. Are you Charm and Love? Truly sent me to see you.” “Oh yes, we know Truly, she is wonderful. Very pleased to meet you Soul. So what can we do for you? Tell us about why you come to see us.”
“I briefly told them about my relationship with Blissy and the question on my mind after my meeting with Hope, how does our self-worth affect the love we attract?”
“Absolutely, when we begin a relationship and fall in love with our partner, we see the best in them, we give to them continually, we want the best for them. But what then later, our insecurities and parts of us that don’t feel good enough can cause us to feel overwhelmed because of receiving so much love. We move from our hearts into our heads and become dependent and attached.
This is also when Charm explained to me about dependence and avoidance, the ideas which I explained to you right at the beginning. It was Charm’s wisdom I was imparting to you.
Charm and Love were particularly interested in hearing about what I had been doing to heal so they asked me to relate my whole story with all the characters I had met with. It took me until the end of the next day to give them a good overview, especially with all the searching and poignant questions they asked. They both had a way of listening so intently with such love that I felt completely heard and understood. When I finished they told me that I had received some wonderful guidance, but that was also because I had sent out such good intentions and that I was very receptive to receive answers.
It was easy to see see how Charm may have acquired his name. He had a twinkle in his eye, charisma and such an engaging smile. I was intrigued as to how ‘Love’ had acquired her name and soon after I finished my story I asked her.
Love explained, “My mother unlike other water voles experienced enormous problems conceiving and waited an extremely long time before giving birth to me. She believed that love was the most important thing and as I was the most important thing in the world to her she decided to call me ‘Love’. In fact I was the only child she ever gave birth to and as a result, even though I was extremely loved, my experience of love was often smothering, overprotective and even controlling. This affected my relationships. It became my mission in life to discover ‘true love’, because there are so many varying definitions as to what love is. I can tell you… Love is giving. Love is also receiving. In the act of giving love you are also receive love. If you fill up with love all the time by loving yourself and by connecting with spirit, god, source, however you think of the divine, you’ll be able to continually give and receive love and experience true love. This sounded wonderful and it was clear that Charm and Love had found true love.
They both exuded such a beautiful aura and I could tell there was a highly spiritual element to their beliefs, so I told them about my deep spiritual connection with Blissy.
What Charm told me next affected me profoundly. He stated, “Often couples have the same problem such as dependence but experience it differently. One feels extremely dependent and the other dissociates from the painful emotions. If one partner is prepared to feel the feelings and heal him or herself, it can heal the problem within the relationship for both partners. I wasn’t sure at the time whether I thought this was really true but instead of feeling weak and vulnerable about my neediness, it helped me to feel that maybe because I had continually been feeling my feelings and keeping my heart open that I had actually been courageous and was helping to heal my relationship with Blissy.
What you heal in yourself also heals your relationship. It’s always best to communicate through talking and sharing your feelings but sometimes a time apart can be good for healing and also sometimes circumstances and distance prevent us from being able to talk, so during these times we can communicate and heal by sending love. If there is a break in your relationship or you’re separated or even if the relationship has ended sending unconditional love can always heal the problems between you.
Even if you are strongly connected from your heart, the problems in a relationship are created, when your head, where all your worries and insecurities are, becomes too attached. The solution is to let go of your head and only connect from your heart.”
At this point Love added, ” When you are in a relationship, if you keep connecting from your heart to your partner’s heart, sending love, committing and giving yourself fully, you free yourself and you free your partner. It takes courage to feel your feelings, give yourself fully and connect with your heart, but if you do it is ‘true love’.”
I stayed close by as the energy, from this stretch of the river was so healing. In the next few days I returned a few times and ‘Love’ taught me some heart based loving meditations and Charm imparted some more of his insights and taught about connecting with source. He also showed me some visualisations that he thought I would find extremely beneficial.
I also told Charm about my incredibly deep spiritual connection with Blissy and how when were apart we could sense when each other was sending love to the other and we could communicate telepathically, although this was more Blissy picking up my thoughts. This is when Charm told me about soulmates.
He told me to trust and listen to my intuition, and if you are meant to be together, you will find each other again.
I went to my secluded burrow nearby. Everyday I connected with spirit, sent Blissy unconditional love, healed my insecurities and low self-worth. Before I visited Charm and Love I had already made huge improvements and felt much better but now I was really beginning to feel that I was healing every day. I felt an increasing connection to and from spirit and with it more self love.
Then one day I felt as if Blissy was connecting with me and I briefly felt intuitively that everything would be fine. Then, a few days later, I felt her energy again. This time it lasted for a morning, before it disappeared.
Then days later, the connection started and I could feel the sensations and waves of love, which I had felt from Blissy, when we were together. At first, I wondered whether I was just producing this love myself, but it continued almost all day long. I was delighted to feel the connection again. It was intense and really affected me. I felt a warm glow and palpitations in my heart, my heart missing a beat all manner of different sensations and energy pulsing throughout my body. As the days progressed, although delighted, I also found it very difficult to deal with. I found it really difficult to concentrate. I became very restless and unable to relax. I had been meditating a lot and feeling a real loving connection to source but now I found it really difficult to meditate as the sensations were so strong. This carried on day after day. I did wonder if this really was Blissy sending me love and energy or whether I was just picking up what she was feeling. I found if I woke up at night, I was calm and so I’d spend time awake at night relaxing. It also made me feel it must be Blissy sending me love during the day as she would be sleeping at night so she couldn’t send me any energy during the night.
I wanted to contact her. but part of me felt it was not the right time. Charm taught me how to read the signs in nature and all of these suggested that the time was not right and to wait.
Then I remember vividly it was the night before a day, regarded as a very holy day, and I was lying in my burrow, ready for sleep, when I suddenly felt this this incredible surge of energy coursing through me. It felt as if Blissy was with me. It was delightful and intoxicating to feel such a strong physical connection after so long apart. The next day I noticed a different, softer energy in my heart being sent. Maybe Blissy realised after the night before, just how much I loved her, if she didn’t already know.
Then a week later, I was not feeling well so I stayed in my burrow to rest through an evening, celebrated as an important transition day in the year. However, in the morning after waking up, I felt this unbelievable connection to Blissy. It was a beautiful, transcendent experience, waves of love flowing through my body. I just wanted to to savour the experience for the whole day.
Of course we were still apart and I wanted to go to her but I knew it still wasn’t time. I wasn’t ready.
I said my goodbyes to ‘Charm’ and ‘Love’ and thanked them for all their help and guidance.